i dont want to scare anyone.... i dont want to sound like a bitch.... im just being a realist. my life is shit. my life is whatever comes after 180 degrees from where i wanted it to be at this point..
i gave THE worst speech in my speech class tonight... just.. the worst.
i blame myself and my procrastination.... i dont blame anything/one else.
im a horrible person at this point....
fucking the wrong person? maybe
wanting to better my life? sure
trying to better myself? nope
doing anything positive? nope
im in NO WAY saying anything suicide realated... but.. when is it okay to say im done with life, and am okay with checking out?